Today I am not feeling the best, I have been fighting a sore throat and ear ache since Friday I think they are finally taking over my fight.The weather has been really cold,dry and windy. I haven’t been very good or warm forgetting my jacket a lot at home or wearing a sweater because I can’t stand heavy coats. I am laying here with my two best friends curled up and writing just to get thoughts flowing, it feels good to have the time.
It’s so quiet all I hear is the ringing in my ear and the distant sound of the television from downstairs or every once in a while I can hear Maddy laughing with her daddy or running as she asks how’s mommy? She’s sweet like that and I am very lucky. Here I sit now with tea and soup thanks to two wonderful people in my life and I am sort of happy to be sick.
I run around all week walking dogs or taking care of the neighbors cats and never sit down long enough to enjoy life,for some reason I feel I always need to be accomplishing something which in most cases is true but I need to sit and listen for that inner peace or that inner piece of Lisa. I can be the best mom in the world or the best pet sitter in the world or wife of the year but without a cup of hot tea or the chance to watch my favorite programs by myself I am nothing. can’t tell you the last time I spent money just on me. I was born this way with thinking
I was watching lark rise to candle ford on PBS the other night with my husband laying next to me snoring. I started to cry softly as I heard the words in the story being told to Laura as she wrote ” be yourself.” What would it mean to be myself? Lisa Marie Galon Landry? Would it be selfish or risky? I work so hard to do everything properly and Godly, be polite, be neat, make sure my kids are good examples, be a good spouse, make sure dinner is on the table all the old fashion ideas I have grown up with. Too many years of watching little house on the prairie,maybe but I have a heart for doing what is right and putting all selfish thoughts aside.